Suicidal Thoughts

I can’t help myself any longer.

She said she survived because of me, is because my old-self.

Now i’m getting busier and new circumstances changed me a lot.

So, i become someone new.

And i’m afraid that she wouldn’t survive because of my new-self.

I don’t want her to get hurt more.

I decided to attempt suicide then she would has another reason to survive. Doesn’t she?

When life gets harder, i used to get lots of love and support.

Since i become someone new, people see me as a stronger self.

Who can stand by herself.

While actually i’m on the edge of a cliff.
Every smile that i make suffocates me.

I decided to attempt suicide so the pain would’ve gone. Doesn’t it?